I don’t know how…

…to pick up the phone, in the middle of the night and say “Hi…I’ve missed you!”.
I don’t know how to say “will you please stick around? I need you there”.
I don’t know how to say “Do you love me?”.
I don’t know how to not go away.
I don’t know how to be around, how not to be left behind.
I don’t know how to keep.
I don’t know how to be taken.
I don’t know how not to seem so familiar, not to hope that I don’t need to know, because you will.
I don’t know how to say “stay!”.
I don’t know how to tell if you love me most, of always, or mostly now.
I don’t.